Why I've been M.I.A

*PLEASE READ DESCRIPTION* There's nothing harder than admitting that you're not okay and need help. I've been procrastinating making an episode to tell you guys whats been going on for sometime now, and I dont want to leave you hanging anymore, so I figured this is the best way to communicate with you without actually physically communicating. To be completely honest, I haven't figured out exactly whats been holding me back from making new episodes but I've stayed silent for too long now and I feel as if many of you deserve an explanation. Probably about a month ago, my mental health started getting bad. I was having a lot of negative thoughts surrounding fear of the unknown, which was causing me horrible anxiety, a type of pain in my stomach I've never felt before (as my anxiety manifests through my stomach). I started beating myself up about having this much anxiety because I didn't know what was causing it or how to get rid of it, and so my mental health kept getting worse each day. For the past month it feels like I've been battling my own mind, I cant seem to group my thoughts together and get them all down in an organized way, I stress myself out with things I know I "should" be doing versus things I want to do, I keep on going back on my word, doing and saying things that are contradicting each other, in general it feels like I'm going crazy. I will make an actual episode going more in depth about everything thats been going on because I think this information and these things that I'm learning about myself are important to share with you guys. But for now I just wanted to finally let you know a little about whats been happening with me and my mental health right now and tell you that I do want to continue making episodes and do everything I can to help others, but first I need to help myself and make sure I'm in a good place to continue the podcast. Thank you to everyone who's asked about the podcast and where I've been, I hope to make new episodes very soon. Literally just writing all of this out, has motivated me so much to make another episode. Peace, love and happiness everyone. Talk to you soon.